I stepped in cat puke this morning and thought of you… How is that for a pick-up line? It is true, I did think of you, the collective you, blog readers as well as my writing notebook and my creative life that seems to have fallen by the wayside in the last 6 months. I just haven’t been able to think of anything original, funny, inspiring, or necessary to write about. My thought train was “Maybe cat puke in between my toes has a lesson? Could it possibly be funny? I don’t think I can spin this into inspiration, or any particular sign from God. I can’t think of any reason to write ‘cat puke on my toes’ in my gratitude journal. I think I will continue on with my day and get the laundry going after I clean this grossness up”.
And the moment was over, again. My moment to think deeply, consider anything, be inspired to write a piece, to say something to the world was gone. I wanted to forget that I ever dreamed of sharing that to a wider audience. I had nothing new to add to your day. Then I read this quote later on:
“There are no new truths, but only truths that have not been recognized by those who have perceived them without noticing.”
It sounds like a merry-go-round when you first read it. But read it again, slower. Maybe I don’t need a pithy lesson every time I write- we have already heard everything anyway. So… maybe I could just do a quick check-in and practice blogging again, sharing again with you the intricacies of the 3-legged table and its challenges and victories. I have a hard time distinguishing the need to write vs. the need to say something that you would find worthy of reading. I imagine that is a lot of bloggers’ dilemma. Luckily, you have a delete button, and stop listening any time. So I am saved by the button!
I have missed writing, and sharing the ups and downs, have missed my blogging community, and have also struggled with what is appropriate to share. You longtime readers know that I dig deep and don’t spare gory details when it comes to heart strings being yanked in my life. But we like it that way, don’t we??
So anyway, this is my start. Cat puke between the toes- I am coming back to the blog, back to writing, back to encouraging you to step up and be courageous, be the Light in your life, be who God thinks you are: a wonderful amazing, incredible human being with so much to offer the world (that occasionally he throws cat puke in the road to startle us awake, but always means it with the best of intentions).
I have missed you. Hope to see you soon.