The party was really fun yesterday. “Cute Guy” was not there, but other cute and fun people were, and I really enjoyed laughing with friends. I was probably the oldest one there, and had jello shots and “shotskis” (shots in a line with others because the shot glasses were epoxied onto a downhill ski- for togetherness, I guess). Not many people were couples, so it was really easy to just enjoy everyone’s company. (I did NOT get smashed, SG. I just had a very good time. All good!)
There was one couple there, and it was inspiring… the guy was such an obvious immature jerk to her and the world in general that it kicked in my gratitude at not having that element in my home any more.
Every now and then, I get this contented feeling that all is well, I am on God’s path for me, and will meet just the right man at just the right time to really love and enjoy each other. It is a very trusting feeling that results in me feeling no impulse whatsoever to go on match.com, or pof.com, or whatever the latest dating site is. It just is not necessary if I am living my life happily and being exactly who I want to be. The man will show up.
I get so trusting in this feeling that I go a step further and realize with a slap upside the head “Oh my, I have a lot of things to enjoy doing in this time alone. I need to keep on 1) being completely spontaneous with my social plans, vacations with kids, and my finances, reporting in to no one, 2) eating peanut butter toast for dinner with watermelon because I hate cooking, 3) leaving stuff all over my bathroom floor for days, 4) spontaneously talk with my teenager until wee hours of the night about their life, their worries, their stuff…” You know all those things we get to do as people outside of relationships. Because someday those spontaneous moments won’t be so spontaneous or so common in my life.
That makes turning my heart and my yearning for companionship over to God and enjoying the moments today much much easier.
Ha ha ha!!! Good for you, not getting drunk so much, at least no headache in the morning!!!
And I leave my stuff on the bathroom floor for weeks, thumbs up for that 🙂 🙂 xx
Thanks heavens for that! I even did not get (too) drunk the other night either, with The Cute Guy. I could be getting boring…!
So glad you’re back and writing. Your thoughts and observations are spot on and inspiring. Glad you enjoyed your time out with friends. You sound content, secure…in a good place!
Thanks Mark. You always have such nice compliments. I am having fun getting back into the blog, hope to have something worthwhile for others to read…