Feeling better, but it DOES take work
It is all good, however it works out at the party.
When we let our old expectations in, and let others “comment” on them, we will be disappointed, sad, angry, and lose our way from God’s perfect path for us.
God’s immaculate timing has a history of working out well for us.
It is not going to be easy, Being the sanity, the companionship, the love, the faith I want in my life. But I think it is what we are called to do anyway.
I had to tantrum against peace for a while. I may have to again too. Repeatedly committing to God’s will for us, not our silly pictures in our head of what life “should be like”.
I want gold stars, and I get a few. But they aren’t enough when humans give them to me. I want them from the Source.
Lots of things may help a broken heart, but surrendering to God’s time and God’s will is all that matters.
I have been too fearful to bare/bear myself and my hopes and dreams.