Like a Moth, Going Towards the Light

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I decided last night that I need and want, deserve, and am going to have a man that will protect me and cherish me.  It made me cry just thinking that would be possible…  So I have been fantasizing and calling in a cute man who looks and acts pretty much like a fireman- you know how sexy those guys are! : ) and that feels really good.  I am definitely praying a lot about it, talking it all over with God and letting him know I am ready for “my fireman” to arrive.

 In the meantime, I have had all these wonderful, yet unavailable (a.k.a. married) men give me kindness and warmth- the cable guy was so sweet with his follow-up and re follow-up on cable issues I was having; a coworker gave me an apology card after being pissy and belligerent with me during a meeting; another coworker has been laughing and joking with me about the difficulty of our project these days, sharing inside jokes and hilarious puns with me on it; the youth director awarded my daughter a really robust scholarship to go on the Church ski trip this weekend; an old friend is keeping me company on text, encouraging me and offering sweet support and kindness; and another coworker has been tirelessly and cheerfully helping me with some really boring aspects of the project.

 I am experiencing sweet men in my life, and it is reminding me that there really are some very good ones out there!

 CG (who has been re-named Goober, becasue he is not a Cute Guy after all- I don’t care how much turmoil you have in your life, it is not ok to start a fling iwth a single mom colleague who clearly has other ideas about you…) has been out of the office for the last 2 days, working from home.  Goober is in today.  I happen to be wearing a really cute sweater dress that looks pretty good on me.  (I am calling that Fireman in!!!)  Goober passed by an office where I was talking with someone and I saw him take in the whole view with a cold eye.  I am focusing completely on that Fireman, and attempting to not care less what Goober thinks, what Goober says, or what Goober does.  Goober-Man is not about protecting and cherishing me.

 Instead, I am channeling, growing, feeling, God’s love and infinite care for me.  And I have received 3 (!) really fun invitations from women friends for this weekend!  So, onward and upward, toward the Light.  I will let you know what happens next.Image


  1. Wow!! you sound much better, upbeat, inspiring and positive than before! Good things are soon to happen for you and a special person deserving of all that you have to offer is out there waiting for you. Thanks for being there for me.

    Big hug squeezes from your “old friend” 🙂

    1. Thanks for the cyber hugs, Mark. you have been a consistent friend and supporter for decades now (wow, we are old, huh?) I hope to blog more inspiring stories now for the new year rather than the drivel that I have been focusing on (a.k.a. Goober-snot, hahahahaha!).

    1. Thanks for all of your loving support, Mary. I am looking forward to my 2012 blessings and sharing them with you, my wise teacher and friend.

  2. You very much deserve that Fireman to love and protect you and treat you like a Queen. You keep your eye on the light and if you lose sight of it CALL ME! 🙂 I am so proud of you and the choice that you made. I know it is not easy. Speaking of firemen…. I do have several male friends that I could introduce you to. (Some of them might truly be firemen). I love you Anne and you are a ROCKSTAR!!!! You are doing great things in your life and I am so lucky and proud to have you as one of my amazing friends. God Bless You! I hope that we can get together soon! Love ya!

    1. Well, Sandy, you are my inspiration, Sweetie. You fly through adversity and issues with a smile on your face and service and love for others in your heart. So “you betcha” (to speak Wisconsi) I will call you when (not if, haha) I forget that beautiful Light I am swimming/flying up towards. Life is short, girlfriends are the gold, and you are a sweet supporter. Thanks for reading, and I can’t wait to get together soon too!

      Oh, and yeah–I would LOVE to meet your potential Firemen!

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