Here is the latest:
I decided last night that I need and want, deserve, and am going to have a man that will protect me and cherish me. It made me cry just thinking that would be possible… So I have been fantasizing and calling in a cute man who looks and acts pretty much like a fireman- you know how sexy those guys are! : ) and that feels really good. I am definitely praying a lot about it, talking it all over with God and letting him know I am ready for “my fireman” to arrive.
In the meantime, I have had all these wonderful, yet unavailable (a.k.a. married) men give me kindness and warmth- the cable guy was so sweet with his follow-up and re follow-up on cable issues I was having; a coworker gave me an apology card after being pissy and belligerent with me during a meeting; another coworker has been laughing and joking with me about the difficulty of our project these days, sharing inside jokes and hilarious puns with me on it; the youth director awarded my daughter a really robust scholarship to go on the Church ski trip this weekend; an old friend is keeping me company on text, encouraging me and offering sweet support and kindness; and another coworker has been tirelessly and cheerfully helping me with some really boring aspects of the project.
I am experiencing sweet men in my life, and it is reminding me that there really are some very good ones out there!
CG (who has been re-named Goober, becasue he is not a Cute Guy after all- I don’t care how much turmoil you have in your life, it is not ok to start a fling iwth a single mom colleague who clearly has other ideas about you…) has been out of the office for the last 2 days, working from home. Goober is in today. I happen to be wearing a really cute sweater dress that looks pretty good on me. (I am calling that Fireman in!!!) Goober passed by an office where I was talking with someone and I saw him take in the whole view with a cold eye. I am focusing completely on that Fireman, and attempting to not care less what Goober thinks, what Goober says, or what Goober does. Goober-Man is not about protecting and cherishing me.
Instead, I am channeling, growing, feeling, God’s love and infinite care for me. And I have received 3 (!) really fun invitations from women friends for this weekend! So, onward and upward, toward the Light. I will let you know what happens next.
Hey, it’s Groundhog Day! I remember this post from about a month ago.. 🙂
Hi SD, I know, it is so strange… I was writing a new post, and it published the old one rather than just updating it. So, you got to check your memory with this one!